Consciousness of Love

I am here, sitting, thinking and feeling

time slowly passes

so much different and the time it changes

so slowly it passes

I sometimes think of the time

as I find it has passed

there you are, smiling that smile, helping me count the ticks

how can I imagine the life lived after time has passed

so slowly

I speak of those languages our demons speak

so hard to understand

how can we ever understand when we cannot understand

I don't know

love is strange

it changes you and changes in you

so strange to feel a heartbeat that isn't you own

and wonder how can you live without it, but not yours

there are many reasons to live

there are many reasons to die

how can you live when there is nothing to live for

there is every reason to die

without any choice to be made

I make the choice, though

with you, for you, around you, the future you

it is not just you that I want, but the future you

the one you will become because of who you are, and have been

I don't know the meaning of love

I know the meaning of the love I have for you.

always

 

BMM

Keys to the Cage

He walks down the steps, his head hung low.  His fate was sealed long ago and he knows it.  The feathers brush against the steps as he makes his descent, becoming soiled at the tips. 

The keys clang in his hands, the long iron edges rapping against his long, dark talons.  As he passes by the low burning candles, the dark red of skin gives off an almost glazed and glossy sheen.  The leathery appendages drag on the steps, too dark to show any dirt.

The cage opens ahead of its only ‘soon to be’ occupant.  He walks in with no fanfare or complaint.  He looks up to his jailer, the light from his eyes shining in concert with that luminescence above his head. 

“Is this where I stay, forever?”

“Who knows.” 

He smiled.  The tips protruding from his lips could have been daggers. 

The door closes to the cage, that talon hand twisting the tumbler.

“What I do know is that I have been where you are now at for far too long.”

The light skinned, glowing man smirked.

“What an interesting situation we are in.  The savior becoming the prisoner and the prisoner becoming free.”

“Interesting indeed.”  He turned without further comment, walking lightly up the dark, spiral stairs, keys clanging against those long, shadowy fingers. 

 

 

 

 

The Heart Breaking

The lines are drawn, so equally measured

Time has passed, slowly

I find the space in between moments, and stare

And the stone hardens 

I look across the void, the darkness does not bother me

Least of the darkness, still, inside 

I find quiet in the absence of light 

And the ice thickens 

The tears no longer fall, a reminder of what's been lost

I feel the light wane 

I find my inner eyes have adjusted 

And the shell withers 

I look at those lines, my power unable to move

I stand at the void, no words to quicken

I try to reach into the pool, so dry and desolate 

There won't be a light in this darkness 

Even the smallest of sounds can crack the stone 

In complete darkness a single light can be a sun 

One beat can bring life needed still 

To the heart long lost to a broken will 

Your smile and laugh remind me of that song that only we could dance to

I can still remember that it was the light in your eyes that showed me the way 

Your love was what brought life to this still heart 

And time has shown me that it is all just a bad dream

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The Impulse

Her eyes twinkle, seemingly alight

Of a fire burning deep, an angel descending into night

The smile she wore, a knife's edge fitting a tee

Hiding that malice preparing to flee

His eyes flash with that wicked intent

Her excitement flares in that knowing grin 

His powerful grip finds all he can grasp

Her coy and  mischievous nature escape in that laugh 

The demon begins to rattle the cage

Where is the angel to reign in all that explosive rage

How do you temper all the steel of that blade 

When the razor's edge was already masterfully made 

So too did the demon grin with delight

He readied his wings with frightening might 

As that mischievous laugh could be heard again

As the keys to cage clanged in the darkness and din 

As the cage opened wide, unlocked at long last 

A taloned hand grasped a neck with a shuttered gasp

Confusion was met by a darkened grin

Take me with you, she said, unsure how this would end 

All the demon could manage was a deep hearty laugh 

He cradled her close then threw her on his back 

With frightening speed he vaulted into the night 

Both embracing that impulse to shun the light 

She understood the passion behind the anger at last

Felt the heat behind that fright 

The pain behind the violence had passed

The weakness behind that might was plain as can be

She was ready to finally open her eyes and see 

BMM 

 

Affixed

The fires smolder
Darkness abides
The light snuffed out
His mind, lost, glides
Terrible power, rage unchecked
Loosened on his enemies
And levels his gaze

All lost, take without care
The despair, gripping
The spiral it tears
Nothing remains
Save the hatred filled within
He settles his mind
And levels his gaze

No use turning around
The path behind is bare
Forward, just as bleak
The chains drag and metal flares
The struggle provides strength
Onward he drags his soul
And levels his gaze

The light snuffed out
Those close wonder the cause
His pain clear to see
No redemption here
He has gone beyond the rational
Awaiting his judgment, he braces
And levels his gaze

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You

I wake, the sun strikes my eyes
I look around, wondering why
I see for the first time since forever
The sun is you

My vision swims, reality blurs
Tears fall from my eyes
Is it all a dream or is this real
The dream is you

I question it all, not really sure
So many possibilities, what to believe
The words are like a sweet song
The song is you

I smile a smile, different from others
I like the reaction I inspire
I place myself in this moment
This moment with you

I wonder about us and on
It is hard to tell what may come
I believe in this possible future
A future with you

-BMM

The Shadow

He peeks from behind the wall
His face, covered with shade
His eyes twitch, barely open
His lips tremble with rage

His heart, filled with a coldness
Where love and acceptance should dwell
His mind is filled with visions
Of pain, hatred, and hell

He remembers every word, action, and slight
He has spent time awake, many a countless night
His thoughs all scattered, dreams looking bleak
He hates with his very being, seethes with every blink

There will be no new dawn, no light to guide his way
Just inner rage and anguish, the power to slay
His own feelings and passion, buried in the deep
Hidden in that darkness, to rest, to sleep

You sense it there, at the corners of your mind
You see it at a glance, at the edge as if blind
You hear it as if a whisper, light as the wind
You know it to be gone, the shadow brought it's end.